Hello World,

I’m back.

Do you ever feel like your surrounded,like you’ve been put in a large glass tube and no matter how much you pound on the walls or try you can never get free and the people you can see outside your containment, people who you love and trust, it doesn’t matter how loudly you scream or or pound on the glass they can’t hear you or see you?

I been feeling like that a lot lately. Something happened about a month ago and since then it’s like memories that I had locked away and forgotten about, emotions, trauma have since then re-surfaced and I honestly feel like I am drowning. A therapist would probably tell me to dig deep and find the root cause and relation between all of these emotions, trauma, and memories and feel the emotions or embrace them. But from where I am standing right now opening that box and letting everything in,all the things that I have suppressed for years does not sound like a great idea. To be honest, I’m scared. Scared that if I let everything in, I won’t be able to pick myself back up or emotionally recover, scared that it will all consume me and break me beyond repair.

Funny enough today I saw a quote from,”The Lion King” I just put it down here for you guys to see:

Hard to imagine a crazy monkey from an animated movie can bestow so much wisdom, I know….

Like Rafiki said, the past can hurt but whether you learn from it or run from it is up to you….I’ve been running or rather avoiding my past but I think it’s time that I stopped running and learn from it… not gonna lie it’s quite difficult dealing with emotions or trauma’s that you’ve locked away for a long time and maybe I won’t be able to deal with it all today but I will one day. You just have to take it one day and one trauma/emotion at a time… 🙂

KarimiiOnline going Offline xx